Here ! am. i 'm, not informing it to myself. So to say, it's a sign to !. Because, now and here there're just i and !, or only !. And !, haven't met you.

But someday, someday you'll be here. On opening this page, just then, you shall come out. ‘Nice to meet you’, ! say.

Nice to meet you. As i thought !'s eyes were toward the day after tommorrow, i turned ! around in a hurry, but even it might be off the point. ! seem to have no doubt on a happy encounter with you. ! spend time to listen to your story i tell, with sparkling eyes, thinking over and over.

For the first time, when did i met ! ? Was it when i understood that i can never be you, and i'm just i myself ? Till then, i hadn't known the existence of !, and had believed that i can not only see you as i like but also i can be you. Now, far from being you, i'm even doubtful about the possibility of seeing you face to face. Still, with !'s presence, i felt that the possibility of meeting you might come up. May be It was just all in my mind.

Anyway, without !'s presence, i can't even come here. After all, " i " used here exactly means " ! " . In any other words, i myself can never come out. Therefore here, only when ! am here, there is the plece only where i can be i myself. And nowhere else i can except other than there. i'm, living with ! all the time.

Yes, i can always do nothing but, entrusting ! to all just after beginning. Even if so, i'm just i. i'm not !, nor a variation of you. As long as ! have a will to see you, i as a dream will last.

honyaku-kyoryoku：kiyoko hagiwara
1998.7頃